Goin in since 92'

Cool Tattoo

Thu, 02 May 2013 07:51:21 -0400

Cool Tattoo:

I waaaaaaaant!

My car! <3

Mon, 25 Jun 2012 22:30:00 -0400

My car! <3

i saw your photo on fychubbygirls and i have to ask where you got those shoes from because they look awesome and you look fabulous in them!! also you are pretty and keep on loving your body!! ; )

Mon, 25 Jun 2012 22:12:24 -0400

They are a company called Brash that Payless Shoes sells, they were only $35. And thank you so much! <3

Augh. You're beautiful. <3

Mon, 25 Jun 2012 22:11:16 -0400

Aw thank you. [:

<3

Fri, 22 Jun 2012 09:45:25 -0400

I graduated! <3

Fri, 22 Jun 2012 09:44:55 -0400

I graduated! <3

brokenanemone: :(

Mon, 18 Jun 2012 09:40:19 -0400

brokenanemone:

:(

gnarlyfornia: i don’t have one either

Mon, 18 Jun 2012 09:36:03 -0400

gnarlyfornia:

i don’t have one either

Hey girl! I saw you on fuckyeahchubbygirls an I think your gorgeous , and I followed ! ❤so anyways , I thought itd be cool to make a "chubby girl probs" twitter just for fun, I just now made it and it'd be awesome if you'd follow if you have a twitter. It would mean a lot (: this isn't spam either , hahah. But it's @Chubbygrlprbz ! If you can follow that'd be amazing if not its fine ! Talk to me and let's be friendss

Wed, 13 Jun 2012 18:44:18 -0400

Aw thank you so much! That means a lot to me. And sure I don’t use twitter much but I’ll follow! And I will definitely talk to you and be friends. :D <3

I really wish

Tue, 05 Jun 2012 08:02:11 -0400

I could just be fucking happy… I come to school every day upset… Something isnt right. ]:

Sometimes I wonder

Mon, 04 Jun 2012 17:35:02 -0400

Will I ever be good enough?

I try so hard

Sat, 19 May 2012 18:27:44 -0400

But it seems like I always make things worse. WTF IS WRONG WITH ME!? :’[ I’ll never be happy at this point…

Ughhhh

Thu, 17 May 2012 10:56:08 -0400

I dont understand why this has to be so hard… I dont knoe how to handle this… I just wish we could rewind and go back to normal, but I know it will never happen… 3

I feel like complete and udder shit...

Sun, 13 May 2012 09:27:50 -0400

All I’ve been doing is fucking everything up. I lost all of the people who meant the world to me…I feel like everything is only just going to go down hill from here. I never do anything right…Why cant I just keep my fucking mouth shut?! I cant take all of this anymore. I have so much on my fucking plate…I honestly am not giving a shit anymore…I’m done trying. Every time I try, I always fail so what’s the point. All I want is to be loved and be happy. But that seems like it’s so much to ask for. I have NOTHING now, NOTHING. I lost the person I was in love with, I lost my family, and I’ve lost friends. All because I’m a worthless piece of shit and a huge fuck up. I know life isn’t easy, but does it really have to be THIS hard? I don’t want to feel this way anymore. I almost sent myself to a mental hospital last night. All I’ve been doing is cutting myself and hurting myself emotionally. I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE! I just want to die already….Everyone will be better off with me not around. No one in my house wants me around so what’s the point of staying. I haven’t been thinking straight since Friday night…My heart has been racing, its been hard to breathe. I’ve been shaking a lot and I don’t know what to do…I don’t even want to go to school anymore, I feel like life is honestly over for me. I’m just going down hill from here. My life is going to be over soon. I don’t want to cry anymore, I don’t want to be depressed. All I’ve ever wanted in life was happiness…And its all my fault that I don’t have it…I try my hardest all the time, but its never good enough for anyone. I wish I was a kid again so all I have to worry about is getting cut or bruised. There are so many problems that come when you get older, and I can never handle it. I really need help, but I don’t know where to start….

The way I'm feeling

Wed, 09 May 2012 21:06:14 -0400

Is not how I should be feeling. My emotions are all over the place and I feel completely confused and lost. All I’ve been doing is hurting him…I keep saying the wrong things and making you depressed. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!? I’m going down hill…I don’t understand what’s going on with me. I used to be so different…Its just been the past couple months that this has been happening. Its probably because I’m so afraid to graduate. So scared of what the next chapter is to bring to my life. My main concern is losing him…He is my world, my soul, my other half. I don’t want me graduating to end our relationship. I want it to help us grow more…But I keep fucking up! All I want to do is make him happy and want to live and show him all the love I have in my heart. I stress out way to much, FUCK THESE STUPID DEPRESSION PROBLEMS AND FUCK BEING BI-POLAR! I hate this life I’m living. I’m only fucking 19 and I have MORE problems than my 49 year old mother…That’s horrible. I’m afraid of dying at a young age and not experiencing a beautiful wedding and a long loving marriage. And not being able to experience having a beautiful soul growing in my body and giving birth to one of natures most beautiful things to earth. I feel like the worst person in the world for the things I put him through…He doesn’t deserve it at all…I’m a terrible person. I just want to go at least 3 months without crying, worrying, overreacting, hurting people, being a bitch and all the other negative things. I JUST WANT TO BE PLAIN HAPPY! I’m tired of feeling this way…Everyday I’m depressed about something. And I feel horrible because my he tries so hard to make me feel better and it works, but once he is gone its back to depression. And sometimes what he does doesn’t even help and it bothers him. And then seeing him upset makes me even MORE depressed…I seriously need to see a therapist and get back onto my medication because I feel like I’m gonna end up going fucking insane one of these days because of how much I have built up inside. I hate taking everything I’m feeling out on everyone else. I don’t mean to but I don’t know what to do with everything that is all bottled up inside of me. I just want to scream, cry, cut, kill myself. Do anything to stop this…I just want to live a normal life and put all of the negative things that have happened to me in the past in the past. Just think of the present and the future. But idk why I cant let them go…I really need help…=/

I can really be a bitch.

Mon, 07 May 2012 22:07:39 -0400

I don’t like when people talk shit about me.

My first gif!

Mon, 07 May 2012 20:36:52 -0400

My first gif!

One amazing year together today. I love him so much. <3

Sat, 05 May 2012 11:12:00 -0400

One amazing year together today. I love him so much. <3

I wanna get this as a tattoo.

Thu, 03 May 2012 09:19:30 -0400

I wanna get this as a tattoo.

The ring my hubby wants to get me.

Wed, 02 May 2012 10:06:45 -0400

The ring my hubby wants to get me.